Uncertainties

The past few weeks have been turbulent in the office following intrigues and powerplay in the hiring and selection procees of new organic Immigartion employees.

I for one have been distraught that though I hold a little edge over other aspirants being a niece of the Commissioner, I was not even in the shortlist. Now I never flaunted my blood relations with my aunt, the wife of the Commissioner and the 1st cousin of my Mom. I work hard everyday, comply with all rules and perform the tasks and responsibilities assugned to me diligently. My family is not political, in fact I am the 1st of us to work under a politician, thus i follow the lifetsyle , bearing and values of an ordinary staff as everybody else. When it comes to qualifications and skills, i am proud to say I have experience and and skills above mediocrity.

After a while I got was inserted into the shortlist, but to I waas dismayed in the line up of aspirants for my position was a man connected to the 1st family. Thus, I stand no chance of
being appointed permanent. All for who holds the higher ground in politics.

Thus I am very sad these days, my family is also hurt by these developments. The Commissioner;s men sgould have listed my name in a line up where I stand a fair chance, but they did not because they too have their own men and interests to accomplish.

I begun sending resume and applications to private offices hoping to get part time or freelance job/s. So far, I think I will get at least one or maybe two. My goal is to play my skills in the market to have an active practive of my craft. If worst comes to worst in my present job, I have build up my personal professional profile just the same. I have kids and I cannot lay idle waiting for my death sentence.

But true enough, I am disappointed in the ugliness of the padrino system in the governement, a reality that I cannot change but only brace myself with my own forces and connections. You see, the pay is really good considering the time and work load required.
For now the timeline and assurance of my plans is at halt, I hoped to loan a house but this seems for now. It is sad, I am sad.

But my family's support and prayers are lifting me up slowly. Maybe, next time. Maybe the best job for me is just in corner.

Yes, the best is still to come...

Please pray for me nad my two children.